I wanted so bad to go to college. I set down my plan to attend JuCo for a little bit until I can transfer over to Mizzou or Texas A&M. The plan didn't exactly work out that way.
JuCo was easy i know, not extremely easy but something i could accomplish. When life got me down it brought me all the way down. My car started to mess up along with my ex-boyfriend . It was a big ball of stress on a stick. I had no way to school & emotionally didn't feel like attending anyway i made my hole in the ground so big that i felt it was no point of trying to climb out so i stopped going.
Everyone kept asking me how was school going and noticing me staying home often. I couldn't tell them that I had left, so I lied and pretended everything was just OK. My mom would be so hurt & disappointed if she knew so I decided that when spring semester came around I would do better & take summer classes to achieve my goal. Until I recently learned fasfa cut me off for spring so I have no way to pay for school I really had no idea that they would do that.
I had to tell my mom. I always thought or felt like I can handle everything on my own. I didn't want anybody stressing over how my life is going/was going I just wanted them to know the good stuff the outcome. I never intended on dropping out, i don't want to quit. I wanted them to know that i will get to my degree no matter what happens on the way, I will get it right.
I'm thinking Juco wasn't the best choice for me. I am the person who needs to be fully submerged into what I'm trying to achieve and to get that i need to have the REAL college experiences. it will motivate me more to do good if I'm around those type of people day in day out and if i would have left i wouldn't have had the emotional stress over some guy. I just hope that I can fix this mistake.
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